a great weekend getaway. what's there not to love.
with a wonderful family of eight. what's there not to love.
a two bedroom villa overlooking the sea. wow. what's there not to love.
sitting at the verandah with the waves hitting the breakwaters just below. peaceful. what's there not to love.
aaaaand. it was free, at least. for me. muhahahahahahha.
the highlight. father-and-son-in-law bonding session. 3h. what's there not to love.

in the morning @ bttimah.
an uncle commanded his friends to 'rang gai rang gai, you nien jin ren'. thanked them amidst my heavy breathing. then one of them commented - as they stared at me, the nien jin ren, 'oh you are such a handsome boy'. hee. not much of the adjective. he called me a boy. a handsome B O Y! jadi tak ler aku lose weight as my pantat kembang sekembang kembangnya!

there you have it. "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels". my supermodel kate moss was slammed for uttering that silliness just not too long ago as 'it promotes anorexia'. urgh duh. i totally embrace that! not really. one should be fit, not fat! all that crap about loving thyself, be comfortable in your own body, it doesnt matter what people say blahblahblahblah. . . NO WAY. why? i have my reasons, many reasons. but truly, the latest on having newly ns obese enlistees' bmt prolonged is one. sad. very sad. very very sad.

i'd never let my own kiddo, when i have one, go through the fat phase. from day1, i will make sure i'll starve him (or her) if he goes beyond the standard bmi. i just dont want him to suffer =( i know i'd get into a freaking tirade just like bob harper who's usually nice and cool. torturous? neh.

cheapo-me has been searching for a free portal on whatevertrainingthereisvideo. voila! found it. www.bodyrock.tv hell yeah. it rocks! free daily video updates. free articles. love it. love it. it's really cool to see superfit tight zuzana working her butt out! silly me, i never knew there's such a thing as negative calorie food! everything in the portal is just sooooo. . . i n s p i r i n g!

my obsession with fatness. what a turnoff yes?

my newly formed band. . . yeah right. . . found the puuuurfect place to camwhore. presenting the bengkaks. . .

giuliana's reality show has proven to be a real bore. oooh so unlike the dramaqueens of the kardashians.

anyhow, i am soooooooo loving the biggest loser asia. they are cuter than their american counterparts, and definitely not as vindictive. i love it when the screen zooms in on kevin, the heftiest contestant. sad sekali, kesian tau. dia terlampau gemuk sampai dia tak keluar rumah. tapi cara dia berbual sungguh innocent and baik sekali. the second weigh in which is after their start-weight, dia actually lost weight tau. i wanna be his fwen. and martha, the funniest cutest prettiest girl. everything she spouts is just hilarious. cute ler dorang. catch em cuties on hallmark. hmm me. sabotaged my own exercise regime with the many heavy lunch-dinnerS. so of course i didnt lose a single pound. boohoo. my bad.

so. everybody's commenting on the hawtness of taylor lautner. shut up. ada kah orang bandingkan dia dgn zac efron. . .oh just shut up muhahahahahahahha. taylor vs zac. of course, zac! wakakakaka. takda brita pun sal orsen wells and me. aku ni boliao ah.

FAT alert!

do i wanna go back to being fat fat fat fatness? hell no!

there i was lamenting. the weight gain. oh i hiked blah blah blah. . .

i studied myself; and eureka! yup all that hiking and stuff, i 'supplemented' it with bigger food intake - supper included and urgh. . .the nightly two glasses of cocacola float, at least. . .for sure i pile on the kilos! de-beesh kalate chop haaaaaai-ya! ya lah ya lah my own fault mah.

duh!

one ounce on the lips puts one pound on the hips. not beyonce, not jennifer, for me! zac efron is!

today, i am .1kg short of reaching fatness. hell no! tomorrow. yeah tomorrow. i will start my exercise regime again and diet. "abeh besok kita nak keluar makan macam mana!" ish ish ish diet bukan bermaksud tak makan. i will make healthier choices. if i really crave for my float, i'd fill only half a cup. i wont be sooooo stupid starving myself again hahahahaha. jadi by year end, i will be a trimmer healthier shuai ge. 70kg here i come.

aku ni mcm oprah winfrey ah. sekejap gemok, sekejap tak.

come on. i will never subject myself to such fatness again! urgh bearbot! what's with the skin sides of the head, the tummy, the long baggy berms. everything was so wrong three years ago. that was in 2006! i cringe at every 2006 picture of mine. i was that fatugly! so were the two muahahahahaha

smlm ku teraffected seh dgn sms dari seorang anak muridku. sungguh touching gituk. lgpun memang dia dtg dari keluarga yg dam dee dum. anyways, ni yg dia text ku:
1st. . .2nd txt: yes i don like schl holiday i miss all my fwen n also miss u
3rd txt: u know yestersday i go home then i cry i also dn know y i cry i thing i miss you,
4th 5th 6th.
awww. boohoo.

k bulan depan, ku lookin forward to watching zac on the screen!!!! yahoooooooooooo. maybe my next hairstyle nak ikut zac. rambut serak letak clay je. wheeee. aah bila eh agaknya album si adam lambert tu kua eh; dia ni versi male ladygagakraraahahah. and paling last, reality tv giuliana rancic. dia gerek ah. kalau e!news takda dia, tak sah ah. something about her lah. giuliana ni tak ler jambu, tapi charming ler, mcm memukau. hee.

so the year-end hol is here. yeah rite. lum lg ler. ada course ler, ada meeting ler. kalau course sal tido ke, meeting sal tido kan best kan kan kan janet kan. debeeeesh!pow!

i've had countless peeps telling me i look younger than my age. yeah. my heart would flutter at times but more often than not, just indifferent. anyways just a week ago, someone thought i was 36! "oh you are younger than so and so, i thought you were my age!" 36! hahahaha okies so i do look old to some. hee =) me blabbering.

oh ya. today's the 16th. guess what? i have been married for two years. to an awesome wifey. yeah. wifey and i make a great pair and we'll let no crap affect us. . .although i do falter at times, oopsie. i am just human. kalo kita orang islam, kita harus doakan utk kebaikan rumahtangga org lain bukan gembira bila dgr berita angin yg karut kan kan kan. tkpa sy doa semua org gembira dan dirahmati Allah, even to the naysayers.

dah wifey, yg penting...i lap(love) you lah!

S I G H.
32.
not too long ago.
how do i put it?
allow me. to. rant. about. MY. birthday.
i dont wish for surprises. i dont wish for presents. i am soooooo unlike anyone i know. why dont the people close to me respect my wishes? if so my birthday is MY day, then let me have MY way. simple. oh please. really. do not bother springing surprises. do not bother getting me gifts. is it too much to ask for, hanya ucapan sertakan dgn doa agar gedegak ku ini jadi manusia yg beriman OR a card, professing your undying devoted endless love for me! unlike me, everyone else feels the need to make his birthday special. i dont. zilch. period. full stop. in fact i always make myself clear. is it tooooo much to ask for? just dont get me any present. duh. i need no cake. i need nothing. and what again, i gotta appreciate. appreciate the thought? appreciate something i clearly state the need not to? sigh. is it. really. too much. to ask for? i am making no sense yes?
"eh eh you belikan i ni, oooooooh bestnyer. cantiknyer. i suka sekali. terima kasih you."
"ooooooh pranjatnya i. surprisenya i. i tak sangka lah you surprise kan i. ooooooh i appreciate skali. terharu tau i."

ya. i know i am weird but it's just me. since i cant beat them, i'll join them.

for now, what do i NEED next year?

a wallet. prada. no less. there's a tear in my current wallet.

a pair of jeans. diesel / g-star. no less. love diesel for its washes, quality denim. g-star for its cool, rugged detailing!

a pair of sneakers. adidas originals. no less. comfy sneakers for a flatfooter.

a bottle of perfume. chanel / dior. no less. love the smell of opulence.

an electronic shaver, high-end. panasonic / philips. no less. manual causes the skin to smart.

and yup do plan something. surprise me!

i cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oooh meryl streep. i cant think of any other actress who is as wholesome winsome awesome as she is. shes always a delight to watch. julie&julia. cute and funny! love it love it love it. amyadams, shes real. i wish i could cook and master the art of malay cuisine...like duh.

hee i dragged sri along although i knew it'd be a waste of kah-ch$ng. to be cooped up home 24/7 is no joke ya, inhumane and, torturous in fact. . .prison at home, yes? thus once in a blue purple pink red whatever the colour the moon is, i feel she ought to go out and experience life in sg. me, wifey, mai and sri. we had fun.

perbualan dgn muridmuridku amat memilukan. masalah kewangan. masalah keluarga. yg paling menyedihkan ketiadaannya asas agama. hanya seorang sahaja yg tahu melakukan ibadah rukun islam yg kedua. amat amat amat menyedihkan =(

"Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu kalau seseorang itu tidak mengubah nasibnya sendiri."

jujur
yakin
ikhlas
sabar. . .sham

ku tengah emo. emo kerana baru menonton syurga cinta. storyline nya simple, tetapi amat berkesan, menyusuk kalbu hingga mencurah-curah airmata ku. skrip baik dan lakonan mantap. watak syu ayu yg amat lembut dan beriman, watak am tampan yg amat charming dan watak mal comel yg amat lucu. ku tahu, pasti ni adalah satu filem yg akan aku tonton berkali-kali. best. meletopz. boomz.

boooooo hooooooo. . .pi mek tisu tu.